Why a Goddess?
Last Updated: 15th July
You may be wondering why this site is entitled 'Amber Our Goddess'. Well, although I have never had the chance myself to meet Amber Benson, I know of many who have, and their comments all lead to the same thing. She is one of the most wonderful, sweet, caring and funny person they have ever met. And reading this now, you may be thinking 'But so many people are just that, why is she so special?' Well, to different people this is true for different reasons, but for me it stems from one day in the Bronze when Amber stood up for herself, and Tara, while others were slagging her off for being fat and ugly, things which she evidently is NOT. To stand up for yourself, in any circumstance, can be hard, and in this case I have no doubt that it was, which is why I see Amber as so strong inside as well as all the other things that are obvious as soon as you see her, on television or in person
At the time, and sadly still now partially, one of my best friends was extremely ill with anorexia, so much so that she was on a drip in hospital weighing only 3 1/2 stone. In all honesty, in a strange way I felt helpless as if there was nothing I could do...and that scared the hell out of me, as anyone who has been through this kind of thing will be able to relate to. I was at one of my lowest points, when she wrote a long post that, even now such a long time later, I could probably recite, because I knew exactly what she meant. The entire of this message can be found on the Media/Articles Page. But a couple of lines, to me, summed it up:
'... the LIE that ANOREXIA is Beautiful. IT IS NOT. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. ALL OF YOU. Just for being.'
'...All you girls and guys out there who think that starving, binging and purging and exercising yourself to DEATH is gonna change how you feel inside-- It's NOT. Don't buy into all the media crap.'
From then on, I felt stronger in myself, because finally someone whom I respected more than almost anyone had said what needed to be said to so many people all over the world, and she made me realise that I HAD TO BE STRONG. Because if I lost faith, then my friend had no way of keeping her own. I knew it would be a long struggle, and that it has been, but every time I got low, I thought of her word's and they made me, and my other friends who I showed them to, strong, and they still do now. Although it's hard to explain, I believe that if that day in the Bronze Amber hadn't said what she said, my friend may never have got better, and, in a weird way I have that to thank her for...even if she never finds out, I'll always know.
And that, Amber fans, is my story. Many of you will probably be thinking right now, that I am incredibly strange for believing that it was down to Amber, but that's me, and why I've made a website as a tribute to 'Amber Our Goddess'!